this is my last post of '09 and i'm glad it is. a new year, a clean slate, a fresh start.
everyone's sulking about the past year, but i prefer to reminisce about the past decade.
and well soon enough, i'll be trading in my broken armor for a brand new set.



with Beautiful Day by U2 playing in the background, i eagerly await 2010 with a smile.

inconsistencies and irregularities formed the foundation for my thoughts, for everlong as i could recall
little made much sense to me, the concrete fence i had built around me and my only self. i knew what
i wanted, i knew what i had to do, but for some cosmic reason i couldn't bring myself to. whether it
was fear, cowardice, or simple procrastination, the choices i made were not the ones i had pictured in
my head. but what's done is done and i have only my poorly driven soul to blame. i'm glad you're glad
and that's all i need to carry on. i often answered your questions with questions and lines without
explanation. i should be the one to apologise for the confusion, a constant i tend to keep. my actions,
my wrongs, my stupidity, my finality, don't matter no more. acceptance is something i've learnt to grasp
to the best of my ability. and it's definitely a step in the right direction, for me and for you especially.
you were my muse at a point in my life, and you still will be from time to time.


speechless at that, i'm just glad. glad you're in a better place with brighter skies

im too lazy for this.