in search of greener pastures.

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i've fallen, well out of the reach of the common world. i've been swallowed,
by the likes of which i do not know. i've been fooled, again and yet again but
i still go back. i've ran, a million miles at that and a thousand more for you.
i've gotten cold, and weary, old, and teary. i've died, and risen only to pass away
once more.

what a sin, what a surreal understanding of the world i have. my thoughts are
changing and they're disappointing if not depressing. i need an aspirin, what am
i doing?

it's noon o'clock and you're still asleep. your coffee's cold, your coffee's icy.

Hold it, I'm about to drop off
Let me tell you my last thought
Drift into a deep fog, lost where I forgot to
Hold it, I can feel you most when I'm alone
Coming home 'cause I want to hang out with the starlet
Stare up at the ceiling, preview of a screening
Flashback of a feeling, sixth sense of a call
And heard you fuck through the wall, I heard you fuck

When I'm bored I send vibrations in your direction
Through the satellite mind
When I'm bored I send vibrations in your direction
Through the satellite mind

I'm not suicidal, I just can't get out of bed
I drift into a deep fog, lost where I forgot to
Hold it, I can feel you most when I'm alone

I can feel your ghost when I'm alone.



i've got a question.
what is reality. is it the world we create and live in, the things we touch feel and oh so
much love to bits, or is it the world we create in our heads, the dreams, thoughts and
feelings we have enclosed in our minds. do we live with or do we live within?

love is the question and the answer. without love, reality is tasteless and stale, it is not
worth being in. it is when you're in love when you really understand what it means to
live. when you're in love, your dreams just don't seem like fantasies anymore, and
everything overturns. reality then becomes the richer option when love triumphs over
the human mind. it is the key between living with and living within.

alright. so by popular demand, well not really but i'd like to think so, i've decided to make a
comeback. although my posts probably wouldn't be as regular as they used to be, i'll try my
best.

4 months have passed. the longest 4 months of my life, especially after the beginning of february
and the end of my fringe. but well it's been quite an experience, BMT that is. new friends, new
skills, and a new definition of discipline. i'm not gonna go into detail about my stay in tekong the
past 2 months because i've been doing that so much it annoys. well personally i would've never
guessed that i possessed above average command potential. apparently my commanders and
my mates saw past the jokes and stood by me. thanks to them i was chosen as platoon best and
nearly company best, or rather company 2nd best instead. am truly grateful for that.



recently though my mind has been ravaged and ruined by other worldly thoughts. i don't feel the
same as i did before. life has become somewhat a little less colourful and stale. the air has become
heavy and tasteless and the flowers around me seem to be blooming less. maybe it's the routine
maybe it's the heat, or maybe my mind's just playing tricks on me. but i find myself staring at the
stars and awaiting the morning breeze more often than not lately. even now, i'm peering out at the
clouds and they are glaring back at me with monotony. i guess i have yet to find that last puzzle piece


you give me daydreams. you give me nightmares.

this is my last post of '09 and i'm glad it is. a new year, a clean slate, a fresh start.
everyone's sulking about the past year, but i prefer to reminisce about the past decade.
and well soon enough, i'll be trading in my broken armor for a brand new set.



with Beautiful Day by U2 playing in the background, i eagerly await 2010 with a smile.